On Motherhood

                                                 Tealyn at 7 months

Without a doubt, Tealyn has been the greatest blessing in my life, I have learned so much about myself, babies and life in these short two years then I have in all my adult life. She has brought so much joy into our lives and hearts and because of her I strive to be a better person. Our bond is pure and connected like a mother and daughter should be.

She is a happy toddler content with the most simple things. She could blow bubbles and play with the garden hose all day and that would be just fine. Her innocent and free loving self doesn't  care If I have makeup on in the morning or how many times I've worn my trusty black ( now torn) yoga pants that week. She just wants to play, learn and have fun.  I sometimes remind myself when I am tired and feeling over whelmed about getting all my chores completed by the days end that, I will never ever get these days back EVER. Once they're gone they are beautiful memories to cherish . So I purposely  leave the clothes in the dryer till the next beep and sometimes It gets done and sometimes it does not.

The most important thing for me is to be completely present in her day not distracted not moody and not preoccupied with whatever the day has thrown my way. It is hard and not an easy thing to do especially when their attention span is short, days seem long and Facebook is a click away. ( which personally I think is the biggest distraction ever) During the day I am the only influence she has so, she needs me to be positive, calm, nurturing, understanding, patient, encouraging and most of all loving.

There are days I feel completely unattractive walking around here with my hair pulled back in a pony, no make-up in a unmatched outfit desperately needing a shower  playing with blocks and puzzles then suddenly all those feelings disappear when she tells me she loves me and I am reminded that she doesn't need a super model mother just a mother who is completely present willing to play and have fun.  I strongly believe that all these little moments with her will one day come back and reward me.

I know this is a little early , but in case I don't log on I would like to wish all the mothers out there
a happy and very blessed  MOTHERS DAY.